That time again

Oh boy happy days are here, or rather school has begun again.  For this fall semester I’ve elected to only give myself Physics and Organic Chemistry to retake…because one I had to drop and the other I failed/barely passed with a D/understood nothing all semester.  Hahaha….so yeah I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a teeny bit terrified of how this semester is going to shape up.  BUT if Calc last semester has taught me anything, it’s that extra credit saves my butt-no wait that’s not it!  It’s that practice problems and dedication CAN get me through some of the classes I dread the most.  I mean I spent years being terrified of the idea of Calculus and I passed that sucker with a B! I really cracked down and dedicated the later part of the semester to practice problems and that got me through.  So I’d like to think I can take the same approach with Physics especially.  Though I want to get a much earlier jump on things.  Organic Chemistry is still a bit up in the air right now so my plan of attack is more vague, but again I know I need to dedicate myself to memorizing certain things ahead of time so I can make it through.


Wish me luck guys!  And here’s to you all getting through the things that terrify you this fall!  Make a plan of attack and stick to it, we can do it!  Don’t let the fear of failure keep you from reaching your goals guys, I have all the faith in the world in all of you!  No matter what your challenge is, big or small, don’t ever count yourself out.  I know sometimes it hurts when you’ve worked really hard and things don’t quite work out, but that doesn’t mean they never will!  Keep at it, keep fighting!  Because even if things don’t work out perfectly the first time, I guarantee you’ll learn something valuable for the next 🙂 


Life is a journey…sometimes the road is a bumpy one

Once again another semester of schooling comes to a close for me, and I felt it was appropriate to sit back and look at where I’m at, and where I’m going. Life as an adult is a mixed bag of…well everything.  There’s a lot of great points to it, at least for me like; being able to decide my own school path and pick my own hours, work a job that I love, and in general just be much more….comfortable with myself than I used to be.  Of course there are a lot of aspects of being an adult that are hard, and I mean they legitimately suck sometimes.  Trying to choose your own path, and finding your way there is stressful and hard as heck some days.  I know I have days where I sit back and try to decide how I’m going to possibly get into Vet school with the grades I’ve got now, or think about retaking college courses that I’ve failed…and it just gets to be too much some days.  Plans get ruined by things we can’t control, everyone wants you to think about your future, and finals and tests or even work can just suck the life out of you.

Honestly I’m still in my own process of figuring out how to deal with all this…well crap.  I’m trying to find my way through school, trying to figure out how I can keep myself from freaking out about things I can’t control or life in the future.  Some days are better than others, sometimes I can just compartmentalize everything and look at my life week by week…but other times I lay in bed at night, silently freaking out.  I’m a heck of a lot better than I used to be, and a lot of it has been through mentally training myself to do that compartmentalizing.  The unknown is scary, no denying that.  But when I do think ahead to my future, I try to think about it like when I was leaving High school.  There was a lot I had to do, it was all so overwhelming at the time.  On top of that not long after High school ended I also had to find a new job.  Both starting college and getting a new job were huge steps in my life, they were horrifying at the time.  I got an interview at a place I thought I wanted to work so badly, and that fell through.  I got stuck taking a low level math class that made me feel like an idiot at the college I began class at.  Things of course didn’t really go the way I had planned…or tried to plan.  But…once I started college I realized…it wasn’t so different from life before as I thought it would be.  Or really it WAS different, but it was easy to adjust to the new responsibilities I had…and I was never alone as I did it.  I had guidance from family and friends.  The job I had wanted might have fallen through, but eventually I found my way to a different job, working at an emergency Vet clinic…something I never really would have considered for myself (Vet clinic yes, emergency…no that thought terrified me) but now I love my job!  I can’t really imagine myself doing much else! 

Basically the point being, change is always scary and stressful, taking the next step in life is going to have it’s hurdles.  But it’s not always going to be tough, not everything is going to go wrong (even if it seems that way some days), and sometimes even plans falling through will end up having a cool benefit you never saw coming! 

I’m still a bit away from graduating college and honestly that sucks most days, it’s hard to keep my head up not knowing when I’m going to graduate.  It’s hard hearing tales of stress and worry of people graduating and knowing I can’t fully relate yet.  But I just have to remember that everyone’s journey is different.  Everyone will experience different things through their lives and moves at their own pace.  This is my journey, my pace, and I will take what comes, holding my head up as best I can.