You know, sometimes I just get really tired of the way people act like they have to be stuck in a certain way of life. Guys listen, I know getting out of a job you’re miserable in his hard, or finding a way to get out of an abusive situation can almost seem impossible, or just any number of somethings that make you feel stuck. Believe me I get that, and sometimes you might not see the avenues in which to get out but I firmly believe they are THERE. The problem is people are too afraid, or maybe too comfortable to take that first step. Maybe they’ve tried and failed and feel like that means there’s nothing. Maybe you think trying something isn’t practical and will just end up making you worse off than you are already. But guys seriously, if nothing else has worked so far…maybe what you NEED to do, is take a leap of faith. Maybe you need to do that thing that scares you most, like talk to someone about a situation you’re in, maybe that means you need to quit a crappy job and search for something new, maybe you just need to stand up for yourself against someone with more authority than you. Maybe you need to take out those student loans and go to or back to school, or maybe you just need to move out. Whatever the case may be, maybe, just maybe you need to take that leap of faith and try something different to make life better for yourself. Oh sometimes you may fall, and it might very well suck, but you might not even realize the path you’ve started yourself on is something better than the one you’ve left. Don’t let “practicality”, “responsibility”, or “duty” keep you from doing what you think is right for you. We honestly both know those are just rationalizations, ways to convince yourself to stay where it’s “comfortable” or “practical”.
I’m hardly wise guys, I’m hardly some authority on life. I’m just a 23 year old student who might have lived more experiences in life than you think. Just because I’m positive in attitude doesn’t mean I haven’t been through things or understand that sometimes good people fall hard. I’ve seen that more times than I can count. But I’ve also weathered my share of storms and seen the lights that shine through them. I’ve taken my own leaps of faith, fallen hard, but then found what I was looking for in the end, or something even better. I’m probably still in the processes of falling from some of those leaps, but it’s not going to stop me from taking more and seeing where they lead. I don’t want to go through life doing something or being something I hate, if the risk of pain and entering the unknown is what it takes to get where I need to be happy, I’ll do it time and time again.
I will always have hope.
Also I do apologize if this is a little darker than usual, rambly. I’m stewing from a night at work and have been dealing with my own anxieties lately and I may have had a coffee at work when I never drink coffee xD But I felt this was an appropriate follow up to my journal from the end of last winter about being stuck.
Oh boy happy days are here, or rather school has begun again. For this fall semester I’ve elected to only give myself Physics and Organic Chemistry to retake…because one I had to drop and the other I failed/barely passed with a D/understood nothing all semester. Hahaha….so yeah I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a teeny bit terrified of how this semester is going to shape up. BUT if Calc last semester has taught me anything, it’s that extra credit saves my butt-no wait that’s not it! It’s that practice problems and dedication CAN get me through some of the classes I dread the most. I mean I spent years being terrified of the idea of Calculus and I passed that sucker with a B! I really cracked down and dedicated the later part of the semester to practice problems and that got me through. So I’d like to think I can take the same approach with Physics especially. Though I want to get a much earlier jump on things. Organic Chemistry is still a bit up in the air right now so my plan of attack is more vague, but again I know I need to dedicate myself to memorizing certain things ahead of time so I can make it through.
Wish me luck guys! And here’s to you all getting through the things that terrify you this fall! Make a plan of attack and stick to it, we can do it! Don’t let the fear of failure keep you from reaching your goals guys, I have all the faith in the world in all of you! No matter what your challenge is, big or small, don’t ever count yourself out. I know sometimes it hurts when you’ve worked really hard and things don’t quite work out, but that doesn’t mean they never will! Keep at it, keep fighting! Because even if things don’t work out perfectly the first time, I guarantee you’ll learn something valuable for the next 🙂
I know I keep jumping away from this blog in long pauses and then I keep coming back saying I’m going to be more active. And I really am! Hopefully once the school semester hits in another two weeks I’ll be able to blog a little more frequently (ironic since my free time dwindles during school). There’s a couple of reasons I haven’t been blogging as much as I wanted this summer, the first and foremost being….Distractions. A lot of my free time this summer I have dedicated to reading and art projects that aren’t writing…I think because the only art I have TIME to produce during a school semester is writing, so I’ve been taking advantage of the time I’ve got. Part of the reason I’ve put off blogging is because I actually am working on creating a list of my recommended reads. Most recently my reading distractions have been books by Brandon Sanderson, who is an amazing world and character builder. So far I’ve read his Mistborn trilogy and the sequel book to the trilogy. All very good, if sometimes a bit dark, stuff. But I’ll talk more about that when I finally finish that list. My big art project this summer has been to improve my clay sculptures, and so I’ve been practicing with wire armatures/frames lately.
The second big reason I haven’t blogged as much is because a lot of what’s been coming to my mind has been…I guess you could say very rant based. Now that’s not to say once in a while I won’t use this space to engage in a little rant ( In fact I’ve already done that once *cough* ) but for the most part I think the internet has enough of that. There’s enough people running around ranting about things and calling the rest of the world idiots already. Enough people to say everyone should hate something while another side raves that everyone should love it. In short: there’s enough freaking negativity around the internet I don’t need to even accidentally add to it. No I want this blog to be a force for positive thoughts, a place of encouragement, I want this blog to reflect one of the most important things in my life: Hope. I want to use it to show people that it’s still possible to hope even in the darkest of times, that even if they can’t hope right now, someone out there can. So I want to be able to banish those rants from my mind and write with a clear and positive mind…for the most part anyway xD when I’m not being random or just really need to get something off my chest.